We are so close to the end of the semester, it’s crazy! Trying to finish strong. Studies are very interesting. We’re studying early church history and reading through the Epistles. Yesterday I read the entire book of Hebrews. Such a good book; probably one of my favorites in the Bible. God has been teaching me a LOT lately. We’ve been wrestling with a lot of topics: doctrines, salvation, sin/grace… all sorts of things. A few days ago we had a class on the five points of Calvinism, and it was very intriguing, though I didn’t fully understand everything. Also we’ve been memorizing Romans 8, and we’ve gotten as far as verse 27. Romans 8 is the bomb. So glad that we’re memorizing it this semester. Seriously, I just LOVE going to school here – every day I come away learning something new and amazing about this God I serve. He is wonderful.
Also, God is currently teaching me to give myself grace when I fail, as He gave me grace through His Son. I tend to be a perfectionist when it comes to my actions, and sometimes feel guilty for even the smallest mistakes I make. Guilt is definitely something I struggle with, even with things I have already taken to the LORD, and I need to keep reminding myself that these feelings of guilt are not from God, for “there is therefore now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus (Romans 8:1)” – Christ has forgiven me for everything wrong I have done, large or small. Through Him, my slate is clean; I am justified! I’m thankful that God has given me a hatred for sin, but reminding myself daily of His grace to us in Christ. Wow. What love, that Christ would take my penalty for sin upon Himself, and give me His righteousness instead! He is so good.
And He is SO faithful, even in the hard days. These days have been a little tough, to be honest; it’s kind of a fight for joy, with the workload and the sleep-deprivation, learning to every thought captive in obedience to Christ, and just the weaknesses that I’m not proud of (introspection, poor time-management, etc.). But I’m learning to see these days as gifts; they remind me how utterly dependent I am on God for everything: life, breath, provision, faith, joy, etc. If life were totally perfect, I wouldn’t see my need for Him, and that would be awful. And through these trials, whether they be a massive paper I’m supposed to write, or the temptation to worry or doubt or complain about something, God is teaching me to look to Him for strength in these circumstances, and then supplying that strength abundantly. His grace is totally sufficient.
These past couple weeks my friends and I have been enjoying going on little excursions around the city, taking pictures, playing games, going out for coffee, etc. I’m so thankful to have such brothers and sisters as classmates. I’ve been so blessed by the times we’ve spent, the laughs we’ve had, the jam sessions and game nights, the deep conversations about life, theology, Nichomachean Ethics, how to pronounce certain words, etc. They’re amazing. :)
Enjoying my new glasses and being able to see clearly again! The first class I attended after getting them, I squirmed with delight at the fact that I could actually SEE what my professor was writing on the board, and could sit in the back of the class if I wanted! (I still enjoy sitting up front though.) :) I wrote a cheesy little poem the day after getting my glasses:
O former glasses dead and gone,
We’re through (not sorry!); moving on
Not only ‘cause of your decease,
But time to start fresh, if you please.
Since you, I’ve found a better pair
That makes my face look twice as fair.
I chose you when I was thirteen,
My fashion sense was different then.
Now, I’m not saying you looked bad,
But getting new ones makes me glad.
For one can tire of red and blue
rectangular frames; let’s start anew.
So during my final teenage year
I left you for a more hipster
Type with slightly bigger frames
(Don’t worry, they don’t take o’er my face);
Brown; the tortoise kind. Sold!
Something fun but not TOO bold.
And so it happens, I confess,
That I couldn’t miss you less!
And so I hope that you don’t mind.
Thanks to the new ones, I’m no longer blind.
Haha :) Have a good week!