This body is fragile and weak—
This isn’t exactly what I had envisioned.
But I know that it would be wrong
To question the Artist about his decision
To make me the way that I am for some reason,
And give me this life with its trial-strewn seasons.
So help me, when tears fall, and I’m on my knees,
To praise You through sorrowful fragility.
Like David, I ask You, “How long?”—
I could have been freed from this when I was younger,
But I’ll never say You were wrong
To give me a thorn that would bring forth such wonder.
But when I feel lost in my questions, alone
In a valley, enveloped by many unknowns,
Please be my light, Father, and help me to see
Your hands at work through this hard fragility.
As I recall all that I’ve seen—
All the difficult things that You, LORD, have assigned me—
You faithfully guided me through
Every trial You’d given, in love, to refine me.
For pain leads to growth, and such growth have I tasted.
Those tears and unbearable days were not wasted.
I thank You for giving me this severe mercy:
This difficult, beautiful fragility.